So we have what we think is where we fit in the grand scheme of things, it’s like this framework in which you see yourself and where you stand the relationships you have with others. This is all and truly well until you realise that this is not communal knowledge and just your own interpretation and everything is subjective and objective truth doesn’t exist not even if we use the fuckin coherence theory because it’s all relative— but I guess at least you wish your truth was similar to other people but it probably isn’t and should I just tear myself apart right now what am I doing I should be fast asleep right now   



Does anyone get that feeling that their life is running out of / losing control when they lose something ?? !!!????!!



The C Word

Clarity concerns creeping;
Creeping concern clarifies
Confusion.
Cautiously call, cry containing
coldness.
Change cars, claim cheques, cash, 
culminating capitalism-
compacting civilisation.

Control consumes colour, caged
creatures crawling can compete, carrying 
cracked centuries, catching compasses,
collecting corpses.

Concretely condemn creased cordiality,
cordially cease condemning concrete, 
Continue compulsive comic chaos!

 



One-Slided

First slide.
Name and subject of presentation- 
Fall in love with me.
It’s a cheesy transition to the next,
but it’ll get better, hopefully; introduction,
summary, overview, significance: 
Pale, tall, raven-coloured hair and a passion for
nothing.

 But visuals don’t help,
the bullet points not shooting where they aim 
and the font is aging, overused and Helvetica.
Your eyes are distancing…
Each slide inserted another reason to be hurt 
and another reason to keep going, just to wait and see,
wait for me please.

It’s now been the same theme for the past ten,
and it’s all coming to an end.
Another photograph forgotten, more empty words, the art lost 
in a presentation that now must inevitably end
in a flow chart, and a black screen:
'End of slide show, click to ex-'
you’re gone and the room is very dark. End.

 Is this worth saving?  

(Source: lifeismymuse)



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belated post re: youtubers + what happened recently

It’s quite confronting when someone you respect, perhaps put a pedestal have done something in the past that shocks you, that was wrong. For many die hard fans, to be honest, I think this sends a message to them about the youtube culture and how these people in it are NOT perfect, they have sides to their personalities that you would not like, or they may be in fact just  not good people. Because youtubers seem like their real selves  in their videos in that direct down-to-earth way, it’s gotta be remembered there is still a significant separation between their projected image and what they’re really like in real life. All that has happened also shows how vulnerable this culture can make you- you can be caught and easily be manipulated by someone you idolize.

what i find fuckin stupid is those fuckin people who have somehow jumped on some bandwagon which is not cool at ALL and accusing other youtubers of sexual abuse. WHAT THE FUCK thats not fucking funny or cool and that gets you no respect whatsoever so dont even fucking try



I’m actually a self-centred, arrogant bitch who begs for forgiveness / but also a fuckin people pleaser / and then I try to play it all down by being a fuckin insecure indecisive piece of shit / now you actually know me ! :D



WHAT A MESS
YOU ARE JESS
HOW COULD YOU BE SO CARELESS
NOW YOU GO DROWN IN YOUR DISTRESS
YOU LOST YOUR GAME OF CHESS
BEFORE THE WINNER COULD EVEN SAY FUCK YES 



reminders of the past are scary now I’m filled with atavistic lust 



A Song

kiss, kiss, kiss
can you feel, something yet

no, i’m afraid that I’ll give, and not get

sigh, sigh, sigh 
are you disappointed now

just cry a little more, then I’ll feel an-ache inside

Chorus
then it’s time to go
where you gonna go
i’m just gonna go
right NOW

then it’s time to go
where you gonna go
i’m just gonna go
can we go, right now?

-guitar riff-



why is self reflection/evaluation a thing